In youth we learn; in age we understand.

Painting while Thinking!

2011-12-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

as usual, i woke thinking how much more can I sleep...:) Look out my window and there was it, the sunlight shinning through it. Was rather super sleepy I guess..:)I uses this smiley sign alot lately, remind me to smile...
Went out for breakfast, well history repeat. The waiter was rather rude against chinese customer i think:)

Came back with brushes and all, was preparing to start painting. My suprise, the colour of the paint was rather same.. Started at 11. I realise how time flies when it was 2.30pm, when I was feeling hungry.. went to eat a prepared meal made by my mom. Instant noodle wei.... We don't have that time to go out and have a meal, all I thought, can we finished it on time.

let start with the metaphor, a very perfect way of saying "painting is like, painting I must say". It is where you paint.... I paint the wall, so that it look clean, I shave(paint) my beard, so that it look neat. I bring this topic to a whole new level, Painting the wall can be similar to cleaning your thought, dirty, painful, stain, hurtful.

I seriously believe time don't heal anything, time just keep on getting stain, getting hurt, getting pain! Time don't make thing right, It is the time when u make the decision to clear all this away. Some bigger scar might be seen even though u clear it with a paint. I believe, time give u bigger strength to allow to you clear it away, to hold the brush, roll it, brush it away. It allow to hold no regret over what have happen. It allow you to be clean.
To be a much more better person, As the layer in your heart start to increase, you become more immune to hurt, pain. That, I believe it is how you get stronger...

If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere - Frank A. Clark

2011-08-17T22:11:00.001+08:00

Hi, once again. Blogs!!! Spend some time, if you have:)

Thing hasn't been going the way I thought it would be. In just one month, almost everything around me change. From relationship, sports to studies, everything. What some more we can't expect it to change. The good things, I have learn to adapt to it quick enough to hold my self together, before it falls into piece. But still, I still think that "NOT EVERYONE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME".

To be honest, the problem now a days I face. It is a whole lot tougher that I use to have. Problem involving lots of people, problem involving friend, and family. Some times I wonder, it is best I start learning how to solve it alone, so that next time, when I get "married", I can easily solve those problem that arise. I turn to God once in a while, I trying to fully depend on him, not yet. I always thought I have a sister to depend with, but then I "take thing for granted". How stupid of me to not appreciate her.

Solving problem can be view as wining a situation, taken control of the whole situation. Depend how you view, when does u stand. etc etc........ WHAT I WANT, when i solve most of the problem. I always look for a win- win situation. How it gonna benefit both side of the party, instead of a party lose. Bigger problem might arise, in a just a matter of time. The sad things is, not many of us view a problem as a "PROBLEM". They view a problem as an advantage, for personal benefit. Instead a team should lose, they want to maximize in their advantage to gain victory. What SELFISH people are this. They are so self centered the only thing come out from their mind is "ME". Not just self centered, they think highly of themselves, gaining any opportunity to dominate the other party. A narcism person, always admired themselves most. A very difficult person to dealt with, in a problem, society, any aspect in life. But what it is to said, when the person have already chosen their life to be this way.

But seriously, what different does it makes.... between me and the person I mention above.
The problem is why people think that way and claim the other way. My parent use to say I am a very Cocky guys thinking so highly of myself and I find it so hard to believe at first. I start cursing her for she said, she walk off as if she didn't heard a word of my mouth, because I was angry, she don't talk to me until Cool Off. The moment I thought of it, "why PARENT point out our mistake when we think we haven't make one". Makes sense right. They knew us best, I felt sorry what I have said. Understood the situation well, and promise not to make the same mistake twice, "displace anger" on others!

Back to truth, I am a very arrogant person, thinking that I am so great, just because of some small achievement that I have make in the highschool life. Now that I think of it, I re-evaluate my self from time to time thinking(Am I Arrogant). Now here is the deal, recognizing ourselves, evaluating ourselves is not so much of the point here......

Listening to the "TRUTH", that is the hardest thing that ONE can hear. I still find it hard when my friend & family point my mistake. Hold a second, they would not say a thing if I haven't committed yet right =)
Accepting and Acknowledging it is the best I could say, "feelings" can be wrong sometime, Jeremiah 17.9 "The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked." I would not trust my heart in knowing that Me, Myself is GOOD enough or not. Do leave some comment here, anywhere else in my blog. Anything u disagree, HEHE!

Ya, it is the day....

2011-07-30T02:08:00.000+08:00

2nd week of posting for this semester, and lots of negativity in my thought about people, things, and events.Trying to get a hold of myself. Realize that, friends can only help this much. I can only do this much. Kinda sad. Weak!!! that's it. I am weak, in a sense like really weak. In many thing I must say. Anyway,

Some times, we said! I'm good enough, I'm are myself, accept me or hate me! I'm are not "perfect". All this are good enough to safe ourselves from any hurtful things said by people, I think It is an excuse to accept the fact that you 's**k"!!! But let's not forget, we are human being, we makes mistake. It is good to sometime, sit down, quitely, flash back of what you have done for the pass few month, evaluate yourself, the mistake, things you've say, things you promise and not doing it. Think it through, how much you have cause your friend to lose faith in you. Respect, and confidence are earn. But by WORD about you can't change that fact you are yourself??? What nonsense!!! We can't please everyone, certainly. The least you could do is please your self in a way "Win Win situation".

YA, it is my birthday!! passes 2 hour ago:) I've many people I wanna thank!! My Church friend, you guys have given me many surprises! Aik, the cards(2 card :p)! the Cakes( i think i spoil the mood) haha! but thanks anyway, made me feel "something" when i'm around with you guys. I'm stil trying figure out the word to describe! :) thx you so much!!!
Secondly, my classmate for throwing a surprise party where i am suppose to give another person a surprise party! Very unexpected! The bags, the cake!!! the dinner! awesome:) thx you!

Surprise are like Ups & Downs. When it is downs, it make us learn how to manage it and let's not dwell in it, When it it Ups, Cherish it, and enjoy it like there is no tomorrow d^-^b

THAT'S LIFE.

2011-06-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

Can you answer this riddle?

Here is a pretty neat little thing from Paul Harvey. See if you can guess the riddle at the end.

Paul Harvey Writes:

We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better.

I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches.. I really would.

I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated.

I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car.

And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen.

It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep.

I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in.

I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room, but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him.

When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along, I hope you'll let him/her.

I hope you have to walk uphill to school with your friends and that you live in a town where you can do it safely.

On rainy days when you have to catch a ride, I hope you don't ask your driver to drop you two blocks away so you won't be seen riding with someone as uncool as your Mom.

If you want a slingshot, I hope your Dad teaches you how to make one instead of buying one.

I hope you learn to dig in the dirt and read books.

When you learn to use computers, I hope you also learn to add and subtract in your head.

I hope you get teased by your friends when you have your first crush on a boy / girl, and when you talk back to your mother that you learn what ivory soap tastes like.

May you skin your knee climbing a mountain, burn your hand on a stove and stick your tongue on a frozen flagpole.

I don't care if you try a beer once, but I hope you don't like it.. And if a friend offers you dope or a joint, I hope you realize he/she is not your friend.

I sure hope you make time to sit on a porch with your Grandma/Grandpa and go fishing with your Uncle.

May you feel sorrow at a funeral and joy during the holidays.

I hope your mother punishes you when you throw a baseball through your neighbor's window and that she hugs you and kisses you at Christmas time when you give her a plaster mold of your hand.

These things I wish for you - tough times and disappointment, hard work and happiness. To me, it's the only way to appreciate life.

Written with a pen. Sealed with a kiss. I'm here for you. And if I die before you do, I'll go to heaven and wait for you.

Stuff happen

2011-06-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, once again, will be telling out what I have been through....:(
Sunday was suppose to be just a another Sunday. When Pastor Ho ask us to join the outrich team, we are suppose to go around the neighbourhood to talk about the gospel, to get to know more about them. I was kinda nervous, the last sunday, Uncle Daniel, auntie bee shuet, Uncle Christian, Fide, chze zheng and me. we were suppose to find Karman, but he is now at home, plan change, we ended up in the old folk home.

I was certainly nervous when it come to meeting people, meeting people who are 2 time apart of the generation gap. Not easy to talk to. The place located some where inside SK town, as we reach, and we park out cars, we walk in to the home, as we step into the house, everyone was staring at us.

How funny, a bunch of young looking people going into an old folk home. I can view it in two point of view, 1st it is very sad, pity to see a bunch of old folk in an old folks home when they are suppose to be taken care by their family member, how sad, i mean! YOUR PARENT HAVE BEEM TAKEN CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU WERE A BABY(WHEN YOU DON'T DESERVE A THING) AND YET THEY DO IT OUT OF LOVE, AND U DUMP THEM TO AN OLD FOLK HOME. WOW, SO GREAT OF YOU!!! I am just actually telling this to myself, now and always that, it is ours responsibility to take good care of our parent when they are old, until they leave this world, it is utmost responsibility as a children of our parent. I believe.

Secondly, I can take it as God want me to see this, to appreciate what we still have. Parent, brothers, best- friend, friend, and of course people around me. Seeing mentally retarded person lying on the floor at the old folk home, She is only 40, can't speak, can't eat, not even aware what she is going through. Very very sad. Just so to let you all know, all they need is a little of attention from us, children. Being a business man, required you to be heartless, selfish. At least keep a little bit for your parent, those heart of yours, Cold as an ICE.

A things to share... Hope you guys don't find offended, if yes, SORRY!

Get OUT!!!!!

2011-04-27T02:46:00.001+08:00

In life, you some times wish that, you get out of certain situation, good or bad doesn't matter, as long you can get out of it. How nice, if your wish happen as you speak. But face the fact that you won't be getting out of it untill you are are done with it.

Some how, I know that my friend is always there, always beside me giving, and showing support on me. There fore, from the bottom of my heart, I thank you, You KNOW who you are, I don't have to list a name here:) Ex school mate, seniors, friend. They are just there, hands prepared to catch me whenever I fall(I Seriously Hope so). But why in the world am I so afraid to tell them about the problems, More like I manage to escape from those problem, not verbally, more like abusing stuff that cross one limits.

They ask and yet I reject, They show their love as a friend and yet I drew it apart. Some how I can't find the right person to talk it out. The problem not as big as it seems, but when it starts to accumulate. There is when it start to get worse. I manage to escape, but for how long?

How is it to feel that the request you are given are over your limits. How is it to feel that the whole team depend on you(Teams may not feel it this way). How is it to feel that each time a friend threw his/her anger on you. How is it to feel weak when you say sorry, yet it is one the easiest way to get over a social problem. I feel quite relieved after listing it out, at least I know where to start reinforce it:)

There are more problem that I am not comfortable in saying it. But one thing I Learn
"Life Ain't Fair, So get over it" I use on myself. Stuck this sentence in my brain:)
If you reading this, Don't hesitate to leave a comment on the shout out or below. Wish to hear it out from your point of view:)

Afraid to Give up

2011-02-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

Is that even possible.......

giving up yet afraid of it:)

Many times, i have seen friend giving up on what they want/like to do. From studies, sport, and many more. And out of the sudden, u start ponder upon like, WHAT!! they have the chance, they have the brain, the body, the mind, and still they give up, short to say "talented" people. And yet, they still give up! Not suprise to see some one give up during this year of time, this age of life, this generation(i guess)

dear friend, think twice wei!!!! How many of us wanna be in ur place. You have the chance, the life, the hand, leg, time, knowledge. Still u wanna give up??? If i were to give up something, i hope my friend some how tell me some thing about something...:) hehe!!

Just an advise, If u are in a dilema of giving up. Do think of what possible, obtimistic thing that will hapen when one give up. Don't ever regret, Do look back in ur life and make a change. I am not saying this specifically to myself.

All this thought pop out when i was jogging in the evening, during half of the distance i plan to jog, and then rains start pouring down. And then I have a competition coming up. hehe. SEE YA!!!

Promise but yet empty promise

2010-12-18T12:32:00.000+08:00

What is that you don't touch, and break easily? yup, promise, that it. lately it is not as good as anything else there is to good for.

I used to keep all my promise, especially to my friend. Hmm, Be on time to play ball, be on time when wanna hang out, I don't mind reaching early in those day. Saying I will train hard to improve, yes indeed I improve, defeated the one I wanna defeat. Most of it, It is just in sport(No mean to brag).

Now, in college life, people change's. Especially people once close with you. They will never be the same like before, even me. Now that I don't meet them often, They tend forget me and goes on, Well, i hate to admit this, but this is life. People don't wait, people don't hold on to what they have. Stupidly, why do I....

Well, the truth always make people feel uneasy(especially the bible told us so, devil makes us feel that we are "ok", we are right, but actualy we are not.), the truth make them feel unwanted, BUT no, when we speak the truth, they will still wanna complain that the truth we speak is fake(wrong) and theirs is right!!!!! WTH!!! You can hear them talk about stuff they wanna do so much, and not putting any effort in it. Suck to have people like this, PLS!!! do the talk, don't just talk the talk. Once or twice you don't do it, understandable. More then that, I(Edwin) started losing faith in you. Seriously, you do it few times, ENOUGH!

I admit, i break my friend before(i apologize and try not to do it anymore), but you keep doing it again, ready to be forgiven????? . I will not say much as I have not reach a certain level to speak that way, But seriously, if you wanna do it so much, talk less, do more!!!!

Grenade

2010-11-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

Every time Bruno mars sings "I will catch a grenade for you"

I was seriously caught by the voice and also the lyric!

I just can't imagine who will do it to.

Now that I realize, people who are in love.

Seriously, IN lOVE!!!!

I once thought I can sacrifice anything for this girl, but things don't work out the way I plan.

By just thinking, Won't make any difference in life, So to say, I am Failure, yup, FAILURE!!!!

Funny thing is, after sharing with my freind. I can't just forget her the way I once use to forget.

It is like, hoping one day, everything will turn into place.

Freaking lazy

2010-10-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

Don know what to say lah.....

Just that, easily get frustrated, easily get irritate

Unlike high school life, you can tell anything to anybody knowing that he will be a good listener even though his or she is not.....

Now a days, hardly you find anyone willing to listen to what you wanna say.

Everyone will be like asking "YO, WATZZUP, HOW YOU, HEY, HI" and then off to their own duties..... hehehehe

the sad part of the whole idea was, you got no one to turn to, no one to tell it to, what i mean i s problem. alway thinking about it make self kinda sick.

The good part is, we learn how to think, how to convince ourself that this or that matter is not as big as we thought.

Then come FB, hmmmmm.........

We use to sit together with friend talking our own stories and understand it, laugh about it, joke about it, and exchange ideas or own thought. But now adays we don talk like we use to talk, we post it in "FB", there are plenty of friend will comment it, it make us feel good, knowing that people notice, people comment, exchanging thought and all. But, when friend meet up, we don talk about it, because it is already say in FB, comment it again won't and also knowing that you are long winded....:) just a thought:)

Yeah.... Hehe:)

2010-10-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

It been quite some time that I did not even wanna write or blog my blog...:)

Nvm about that, I would my best to write something of me(knowing no body will read sound like a waste, but who care, I just write...:))

Hm... let see, i just finish my 4 week posting at the hospital Serdang and a student nurse:) thing are getting more and more interesting. We get to see real open wound, with real diabetic gangrene ulcer foot(some of the patient), real bloody scene, and real job to be handle. And of course, exam is just around the corner.....:)

Thing are getting laid back. I don't feel the fear i used to. For example: preparing for a fight when Some one pisses me off, with some feeling of fear yet, not ended up a fight at the end of the day( this won't be nice, because even I my self haven been fighting ever since I was in primary) sort of make a oath to myself that I won't fight. And I am still keeping it now:)

about promise, i sort confuse myself by promising and then not happening, I hated it when I take thing for granted, knowing that everything will turn out orderly without me working hard for it. some thing has to strike, and indeed, it strike. another example of this will be, when I promise some one that i will tell her something, in the end i forget, but she is still thinking about all this time. Feeling guilty won't do much. Waiting for the thing settle is even not in my blood. Now that i am still searching for the right time to say it orderly....... hope it work.

lastly, I guess I just think to much. Thinking is good, but thinking too much is bad. Well, How do I put it, hm........ eg, thinking how a friend would think of me as a??? thnking how would thing turn out to as bad as i ever think, but it turn out to be good...:P this are minor stuff and yet, I can't figure it out.

Yet for the major part will be, "connecting picture" different occasion happen for a reason, it is all connect, A person suddenly hate you, it mean something. hmm, another thing will be "What goes around, comes around" hehe.... hatred, anger, bad thing, what i have done, it will come back to me one day.....:)

What else.........

2010-08-11T16:15:00.000+08:00

Friend are alway there, and yet I am still.......
People there i like will alwaybe there too.......

I read it some where. Christian book, saying if u have a burden "Cast it to lord"
Yes, i did pray for that.

And Yes, I am unable to express my self that much, tat is the burden i am having lately.
Who to tell, who will listen, why in the 1st place i would think this way...... lack of word in explaining something, speaking something so unorganize(people would get irritate)

It would be a pleasure tat people tell me about their problem. Does it mean "trust"?

During posting in hosptal. Well people died, it is something common, but I onli get to see 2 died, in one day, tat left me thinking how short can it be....
After a week, I get a message saying one of my freind's father pass away.
It is not that this bothering me or wat....it is just, no matter who, they won't be with us(i mean, the world) for ever so called life.

I am still unable to say which is what, what is why, What to worried......i will stop here,b4 everything turn nonsense:)!

So, this is what happen

2010-07-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

I was so sure i got back at the right track with a group of friend, hanging out, chatting, Yum cha!! shock!!! but it seem like whatever i do, is really not enough to what they can accept, in just one day when u say u can't hang out or cancel a day out or something... it is like I have dump them or something, then the next time, they wont call u out for good! haiz.......

I have been thinking whether which one to focus more, or which one to do 1st. So many thing to do in such a little time!!! anyway, i wont exactly post what i want to do in this blog.... but roughly, do it, and then u guys will know it!!! It is better done then say( something like this) hehehehhehe!!!

finally, which i have been thinking lately, people can't always be there for u, it not whether how u earn ur fame then people will respect u. I have done that, it seem like that failing me most of the time! have to change abit of the mindset.... hehe! and lastly, seriously, what i thought, when story change, people change!!! Thanks God, that he show me a way, by using friend around me.

When story change with the people, Onli the story move on, People wont change!! izzit this way???? eheheheh!!! do comment!!!!

Gossip

2010-06-09T17:20:00.000+08:00

Well, I have been always looking forward at posting(nursing practical). The bad and good happen at the same time. I guess it always happen that way. Which I must quickly adapt to it.

This thing i realise......... Very Very hurting, Normal, And TRUE!!!!

People have the right to feel offended and able to speak up.... And yet, they uses it differently. I can't say that i didn't do it. Because, unintentionally, i speak up my mind to the other which is "OK".

Here goes nothing, They can act cute, good, nice infront of you, and yet they will go behind ur back and talk crap, ONE THING that gets on my nerve, instead of the truth, they change the story and interpret it more "worst" in order to make things sound interesting. WHICH REALLY SUCKS......

If u are saying the truth, then go ahead....... But if u know that friend of urs is a "big mouth" fellow, Do u think u wan him to know about ur stuff??? this is what i am lucky for, around me, i Don see any of my friend being BIG MOUTH, not now... hopefully, not in the future.

And lastly, if I really done anything wrong, because seriously, some times i don't understand what I did is wrong or right.... SO, pls! personally, find me, tell me(not for advise but for my fault)

The problem is.....

2010-05-14T02:03:00.000+08:00

Erm.... Now that i have reach this age! OK, i admit, kinda cool to be in this age!!!

Seriously wei.... i would rather stay in my younger day, enjoying every moment(realistic la, have to grow up).

SEE, people ask what am I studying now, I would proudly answer it.

But when people ask whether u have GF ornot.... my answer would be not yet.

Straight away, when both of this question connected, they would think that i am GAY.

Whatever, I have my point of being single and studying this course!! hahahaha

About my course, very long story, i woould onli tell it to certain some one, why i wanna take this course!!!

About the point of being single or not. SERIOUSLY doubt when people say, "aiya, with ur looks and size, easily can gf loh". WTH, Wat with my look? size? i mean... NVM NVM!!!

about the look, i wont comment, let it judge by ur self, whoever reading this.

about the size, i have plan, not being to big!!! slim..... ya, big but not huge, bicep! slim waist, broad shoulder!!! SERIOUSLY, hard to build some thing like this.

anyways, here is where i think of a relationship,

BEING TOGETHER, when boys have to like pay everything. Come on, BOYS, u r gettin married, she is going to give u a family, be a man.

Secondly, Commitment is a big issue, i mean, now at my age, all I think is study and sport. Where some more got time for gurl oh!!! hanging out enough edi!!! don have to always be together and all those sort of stuff.

Thirdly, From my point of view, well!!! seriously, if I aren't sure this girl is my last GF, break up will happen, and guess wat, I will break another girl heart!!! THIS IS WHAT I DON WANNA DO!

Well, this summarize everything, being together take more than just love. OK let say the opposite sex wanted to be together, Reject? or choose to pleased him or her to be together!

For me, reject her breaks her heart. This is big matter.

What if both of u have been together, reject her will be even serious matter.

Why choose big when you can choose small!!!

Have been thinking of this quite some times!!! Onli now are able to make it into an essay that are readable!!! HEHEHEHE:)

Should I Put it "finally", "for now"

2010-05-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

well, thing have gotten pretty well lately.

To be honest, i have this feeling of going in the club and enjoy those drinks.....

but some time, thing just doesn't get ur ways.. wel!!! :)

meeting up with friend can seriously connect me back to pieces.... how they talk, what they talk, how my self react to it.... It is just, "It make me realize how am I acting lately"

which is not good, i mean acting ain't gonna help a person.

Secondly, have u ever been into a situation, ur close freind, best friend, friend....

for me, "it was her beauty-ness that suck me into an uncousious situation, where i can't find a word to talk to her.... it is just her"......beauty..

Paint ball rock!!! thinking of it, This extreme games some time can really enjoy more then what u even expect. Try it, you will know...

I played it just now, guess wat... 4 shot hits me reall obvious, 1st was on my right bicep, second was left tricep...

the 3rd and 4th, One on my ear and chest, the one on chest really hurt! other then the ear, 3 of started to blue black now.... AIK..... anyway, It is fun!! even thought, it hurt!!

GUYs and GIRLs....

2010-04-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

I can be very good with u guy some time, not because it depend on mood or wat...
It is because wat u guy and girl did to me. Wat i mean is, how u guy approach me or the other way round.....

well, this week i started again, going to hospital training, they so called it "posting".
Fine, like usual, i go to hospital to work like any other staff nurse and hope to get knowledge as much as possible.

GUESS wat, i encouter this situation, We wanted to take observation(Blood pressure, temperature, pulse and other) for this patient. Bed number 5, Ridzuan.

My friend pass by his side, he start shouting " YALA, SUDAHLAH, BELA, BELA, JANGAN DATANG SINI", I thought we did something wrong or wat. Fine, I don really care about it, my friend(student nurses) approach him once again this evening by asking politely, "abang, kita nak ambik observation.........."pergilah, jangan kacaus sini", haven finish talking, he start firing..

NVM, when i went to check on them, they ask for my help, fine!!! I HELP UP!, SOUND FUN AH!

approach him, I Haven talk, " pergi lah, jangan dekat dengan saya, ini menyampah, tak payah, tak payah ambik......... Hari hari ambik buat apa pun tak tau(in my heart, "like hell U KNOW")...

I try to explain, "abang, kena ambik lah, kena check kalau condition awak baik ke tak" seriously, at last, he let in......." ambik lah, ambik lah, jangan blame saya kalau tekanan darah tinggi" up untill this point, Deep down, he want people to check, to much ego edi(i think)....... hehehehe!

Here, i am stating, nurses wanted to check ur observation, ur blood pressure, is not for the sake of FUN, is for the sake of u......... U r being monitor with ur life depend on it, whethere u r in good condition or wat, come one lah, be coorperative abit lah, be sporting abit! hahahaha!!!

Hard thing just keep passing by....

2010-04-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah,,, my exam is over.... so wat, i get play and it is just temporary, how i wish i am able to enjoy my days untill the end, but that would nv ever happen in one's life.

B4 exam, study is my(i believe everyone) 1st priority....... everyday, u or me plan to just leave everything aside and study, skip lunch, dinner, movies, and even hanging out with friend. Well, hoping that u or me able to get good grades. this was b4 exam....

After exam, our mind tend to change, we played, we enjoy. And in our mind, AHHHH who care about exam, enjoy 1st, die later. Time changes, we also change....... But when result come out, again, we change again..... LOL, just a thought.

All I wanna say is, our mind change, but hopefully, us(ourself), wont change.

No matter what happen in our self, our pass keep hauting us, preventing us to talk about certain thing, but be sure, u have friend around.

if u ever be deceive by friend, not all are the same JERK........
If u ever be deceive by the one u thought u love most, get over it, not all guy and girl are not the same ma......

Saying is easier then done, U have so many people to talk to, Pray to God, talk to ur family about

it, It is just one part where everyone of us have to pass by.

It has been a while............

2010-03-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

Well, it really has been a while. I write this blog, meet up with friend. Lastly, seen the grave yard of my Grandfather(mother side).

I Remember when I was young, everytime my grandfather was admit to hospital, I feel happy. Not because over my grandfather, but able to meet up all the cousin and uncle. Now I feel so "idiot" to think that way, since the word "hospital" now, is so severe type of case and not a joking matter.

Nvm about that, when I was 12. UPSR was around the corner. I woke up early one day, just nice my Mom enter my room, while I was still sitting up from my bed. Blurly, And i listen to my mom. With her voice telling me " Gong Gong pass away this morning" sadly. I don't really understand the whole situation that time. NOW I DO.

If not mistaken, I miss few days of class. Heading straight to Perak, Sitiawan. where my mom's use to live, which is my hometown. Early in the morning, we live the house(KL). On our way back, my mom nv really talk, I don really know why. We, the three brother were playing till tired, in the car, and then sleep. Like usual......

When we were about to reach our hometown, we woke up. after my dad make a left turn. I start noticing that my grand's parent place were pack with people, in and out, full. My mom left the car, I remember i was kinda timid to enter a house full of people, as alway, I stood beside my mom, follow her as she walk in.

As I enter the living room, I saw casket, white clothes coveing most of the stuff, TV set, Table. Except chair. I heard my Grandma crying. I din'nt really care, like I say, I don't really understand the whole situation. Finally saw my cousin, run toward them and start talk and play.

My mom stood beside casket, touching the casket with one hand, and another coveing her mouth. As I observe carefully, she start crying, which is a very rare scence. Only, that moment, inside me, deep down, start feeling something undescribable. Up untill now, I still can't really undertand and explain it.

During the funeral, I was called to wear this white attire, with a pointy hat, everything was white. Traditionally, we were told to walk that place, few Km, I was YOUNG, I just did what I was told.
Those were the day, I was at all, not a sensitive person. Not a question ever appear in my mind.

But now, still searching for an answer to describe that feeling. So yesterday, I went back to my grandfather graveyard, AFTER 7 YEAR......... clean it, swipe it, wipe. Yes, respect is the only word came up in my mind.

Do tell me, u read this blog, write something beside my blog, there is a chat box, do tell me........

hahahaha!!

2010-03-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

I guess i was just too caught up by my emotion. DAMN..... I will try my best to nv let it happen. hopefully!

I guess seeing people around me "happy" can make me "smile" which cover all sadness.... hehehehe!

MUST alway remind my self not to be blur over matter which are important.

MUST alway remind my self to let it happen which the ways it should be(feeling happen when some one is interested, not because u can impress them)(BE YOURSELF)

Young adulthood

2010-02-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

There no certain set of age in young adulthood is completed. Many people in their 30^th still show their adolescence problem. Acceptance of adult responsibility requires important decision. He most crucial are choosing marriage partner and a career. Young adult year usually begin with a goal or hope. Sheehy (1976) labeled the stage “ the trying twenties”.

Take inventory and see how you rate in this list of attributes of maturity.

· Ability to think of yourself. If you are mature, you can make up your own mind based on your own values. You may seek other opinion, but the final decision will be your own.

· Willingness to accept responsibility for decisions. If you make a mistake, you can recognize your weakness and accept the blame.

· Control of fear and anger. Although you still have worries and irritations, you have better control. You no longer panic or fly into a rage or burst into tears.

· Willingness to work. Rather than shirk responsibility you want to contribute to society and become financially independent. You prefer not to rely on parent and relative for money.

· Capacity for sexual love and lasting love and lasting relationships. You are able to show your inner feeling and accept the feeling of another person in a deep and intimate relationship.

which state are you all in? all the best!

Thing i am Gratefull about!!!!(take 5 minute to read this)

2010-02-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

Before CNY, many stuff happen, many unpleasant stuff happen, which i nv really wanna tell out!! hehehehehe!!! not my style... anyway, glad that now, everything has turn out fine....
And yet, Can't believe stuff changes so fast, Eg: perception, feeling, though, idea....... many more.
Certainly, Love, hope, faith can't change in an instant, which i am really glad of!!!

Then i came across, friend(church friend). They really do inspired me, in some ways. Things they thought, thing they do, thing they talk!! It is just wonderfull, it is a privelege to meet them and get to know them!!!

Anyway, yet still the moody attitute start appearing on and off....... which is nv a good thing for me! When i don talk, or laugh. It is not that it is not funny. just that, some part of me can't laugh!

CNY, well, Happy Chinese New Year........ to my family, friend, and all... even though i can't meet up. Yet, i am here to wish u....

During the CNY play some fire work...... all which cost around 300++

My uncle and our conversation.

Us: auntie: i want the dragon egg type(firework)

Auntie:zai ah, go get some.....

amounted to 300++

Uncle: (look at us) 300+ onli ah, u all enough anot...

Us: enough loh!!!!!(he buy, we make less noise)

Many photes were taken(my mom and bro wanna make a photo album) with our long long far away cousin(neighbourhood), and our cousin(both side(dad and mom)). Most of it were happy, even though the weather were freaking hot, but all was worth it!

Many year i bet(gamble), but this year may be the best.... guess i played alot with big money and stuff like that. Anyway.... i drink some Achohol(shivas) erm... with my cousin(i think) kinda like that feeling, i mean, some time. Not alway, but that day was NICE...........(after that drink)

which is sinful.....

Then Came down to my house gathering... on my dad side! Great meeting my Uncle and auntie... Ang Pow were nv a matter, weather it is big or small... as long as i get one, i am certainly happy enough.. Guess wat, one of my cousin have 9 kid... Finally, after so long, i remember their name, start from the edlest to the youngest. Abigail, Ariel, Laura, Liana, Sophie, Zoel, Zachariah, Sarah, and lastly Irael....... hahahah!! there are many more!!

I guess all this really happy stuff, and very successfull(the gathering)!

END OF CNY....

Another story.....

Uncle scolding the son

Uncle: And then WAT???, you nv think this thing through...

This is exactly wat happen when u were in love, u Had her, and then u have no where to go.

Son: I would have figure something out..

Uncle: NO, if her friend haven seen u, they would just curse u.

Son: i am just following my feeling

Uncle:izzit ur own feeling, or izzit a feeling that some one cast upon u.

Son: stop it..

Uncle: I am begging u, It is time to start thinking inward, And time to start asking ur self the big question, WHO ARE YOU, AND WHAT DO YOU WANT?

son: "shout"

For ur info, i change abit of this conversation, It is actually ntg to do with girl, i just put it this way!!!!!! when i was watching it, i was actually imagine this uncle shouting at me, with: and then wat? AND Who are you? this two were the point I am trying to bring up myself...... hope it help other!!!

Thank the Lord for the safe journey, wonderfull friend gathering(church), may God continue to bless us all!

It is just merely matter.....

2010-02-03T20:18:00.000+08:00

For so many year...... pain, happy, sad, all kind of moment have been encounter without much problem. It seem that lately stuff are even harder(i guess because we grew older). Nvm about that, many time i think, i wanna be some one strong in the eye of my friend, some one dicipline, and some one important. BUT now, i get to realise that, i am to them are merely matter, who cares rites..................

Anyway, get sick lately, due to over tired, played too much.... sore throat at first, but it seem tat it causes me to have fever..... and guess wat, i told my mother abotu it, she start nagging nagging then onli give panedol, i guess this is how she show her care..

Life cannot live without faith, love, and hope........ read it some where. i know is the truth.... some how, it is hard.... to even have faith or hope or love from ur friend!!!

I am not emoing.... it just the thought all along!!!!!

YAF

2010-01-24T18:10:00.000+08:00

Recently, attend a YAF talk, well, YAF stand for young adult fellowship. So, they started the topic, "Courtship to Life partnership". Which i really think it help us, ME alot. Erm.... i don know where to start. But i will begin with, Dating, to Marriage

A relationship started when:

Begin with the man being intentional,

conducted under the accountability of others(family, church, and wise friend),

ALWAYS HAS MARRIAGE AS IT GOAL.

Note: there is no such thing as perfect match. So, it is a myth to think u should date long enough to get enough imformation , or to date enough people to find out the perfect one.

Get in to this Courtship lvl fast, and get out of it quick by turning it into Life-partnership

hahahaha!!! quote from: Pastor Kek. very usefull!! for me.......

Up and Down

2010-01-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

Walao, thought stuff would happen as it goes by the smooth path......

Who knows stuff happen along the way, and this is what i have almost forgotten!

Lucky it happen now, thank God that he is able to show the path so soon, as matter haven got any serious or worst yet.

Seriously, if i ever SAY or DO anything wrong, pls!!! tell me! don go around talking my back.. hehehehe!! tell, text me, facebook me, or even, msn me!! do tell!! pls! thank ah!!

Changes!!!

2010-01-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

Well, new sem just started, finally get to be the senior in the school of nursing. hahahaha!! we are not the smallest anymore, we are year 1 sem 2. hehehe!

Great, so the college just started, out of ntg, just feel the urge to sleep early, can wake up early. to pay attention in class. erm....... well sudden change cause the body to change tooo....... metabolism.

So, while i slept early, pimple start poppin out, of so many place they can pop out, they pop out under my nose, arggggggggg. for 18 year, i nv had 2 under 2 nose hole. it make it look like i nv wipe my hingus or wat. people stare when i walk around the college, thought that i got flu or something, idiot man! just idoit!! anyway it will gone in a few day, hehehehe!!

another changes is, i get hungry easily, eg. class started at 8, end at 12.30. i start getting hungry at 9 and 11. erm.... don know la!!

lately, thing are great, for me. worried appear but able to solve, stuff change, but no matter wat. it is good, i mean!! erm....... don know lah!

Chrismas!!!

2009-12-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

well, just back from a youth camp! well, totally fun, meet the new friend from singapore!
for the friend who did not went, sorry guy, u miss al the fun.

that camp is a 4 day 3 night camp, i make it to 2 night. few of us(3 of us, a girl and my younger bro and me) did not sleep for the last day. woah!! haha!! the 1t day i went, feel like camp! anyway, enjoy the places we stay at alor gajah, the food was awesome. most importantly the place is clean.

1st day actually where all the fun started!! dinner time, singing time, most of it was fun!, seriously, for me, there no time to be bored.

2nd day was the game part, awesome, just awesome. the part where we blindfold, trust in the comander. it is the experience i gain, i think!

3rd day, well, water game was fun, really need everyone to join in to make it fun! ever since the 1st few camp i join, i nv really enjoy it to the fullest!

4th day was the saddess part, where all the fun stop! every one have to back to their own house, own rules. hahaha!!

the biggest thing i love was, the friend has to turn "some how" like our bro and sis. it is just new experience!!
enough with the camp,

today is chrismas, well, woke up at 10. went to the church service. suprisingly, it is a chinese session. after that was lunch, have to admit the food was fanstastic. after that went home prepare to go roller skate with the church friend(consider bro and sis), visited the portugese family at pj, then have dinner at murni mamak at ss2m the food was nice, went to bangsa visited michelle, jessica, and kendra. chit chat. and let call it a day! hehehe!! good day!!

well!! gila abit to play in this condition!!

2009-12-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

we have a match on 18th, vs this team call Sakura, a very strong team consist of few state player, well, to be honest, they are tough player. nvm about that,( i am also tough ma) hahaha!

well, the match started, it ws dry yet!! after about 5 minute!! f*** man!! start drizziling, we thought it is ok to play so we continue!! who knows, once the 1st quarter pass onli, start heavy rain.

we thought of cancel the game, since it already started, we continue lo!!

during the third quarter, seri leh, the score was 39 over 39, we got chance to win!

who knows, 4th quarter, the last quarter we lost 56 over 45. Haiz, in term of height, still can compete. skill, ok la, but overall, they are really good, deng, why am i onli praising them.

my team was great!!! feel great to play in this kind of team!! hahaha!!

for my friend advise and all: don try this at home, if u slip, all i can say is, see u in hospital!! very dangerous! hehe!!

Team!!!

2009-12-17T01:17:00.001+08:00

Well, lately have been really kinda undescribable feeling,
but one thing i can really be satisfy, after many year of joining different team!!

BASKETBALL
Seri Saujana, Yoke Num, Seri Sentosa, Salak South, and finally, my latest fun team to be in, Taman muhibah!

Well, the name of this taman is actually where i stayed since young, of course, i have been playing and training at this place since the basketball court was build, so the team is actually form out with my neighbourhood friend. To my suprise, unlike me, i get the chance to play in tournament b4, but they, without trying our tournament, they are still "good" in playing basketball in many ways.

There was a tournament held at Seri kembangan, Sekyen 8. the category we join is open de, 18 year old above. We all neighbourhood friend took part in it!! well, of course not all of them is from our taman!! just that, most of it is our neighbourhood friend.

One thing i like about this thing is, they don really care about winning or lose, as long as we enjoy the time we have while playing the game, If can win, sure wanna win la, but this tournament, we join the open category, which is all above 18 or more!! I saw some player bringing his whole family for his game, cant imagine how he still able to manage the time for the family.

And in this team, there no coach to scold us, just that, if one of have an idea or strategy, we say and try out immeadiately. The pressure, of course got during the match!! but everyone don give each other pressure, so that is another good thing in it!!

Hope that everyone will try their best, and able to get the experiece that not many of us get!

a little update!! hahaha!!!

Sorry........

2009-12-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

Sorry seem to be the hardest word!(don know which song i heard it from),
but i am saying it so often, it seem that saying it more will onli make other people get more angry(i guess)

So happen that lately, i got so much time. All used up on thinking.
Thinking that this might happen, that might change, almost everything.
All i can hope for is that we stay this way, or even better. wont hope for more!

There are few thing goona clear up
sorry for being childish: thing i says that will hurt u, thing i do are so "small boy",
thing i think that does not make sense( or sometime will)
sorry for being arrogant: when i say "don worry". They will onli think that
"who in the world are u to make us worry" Or even I miss you.
sorry for being rude: the tone of my voice( i think), will learn the right way

I will try to be my self, and not be the person they favour most.
So far, so good. Hope that him, her, special friend, best friend, or even both.
I will try to improve my self in term of attitude and knowledge!! hehe! Pray hard!
Comment if my english suck or watever!!!!!!!!
thank for even stopping by!

Routine

2009-11-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

what the hell is happening, lately eveything have been like a book.

woke up, doing the same thing, seriously where all the fun goes man!!!!!

everyone buzy with their exam, miss those time at school where we played, basketball, friend.

i guess that what adult say: time flies, appreciate the time while u still have!

Face the Fact

2009-11-28T08:24:00.000+08:00

which way do you think? i mean the fact, wat kind of fact? that up to you.

may be i am being to stubborn to even accept it, but will try my best.

I don know what am I in ur heart.

but when u say face the fact, what exactly u mean?

in my mind all i think is, the fact that i have to face is having feeling toward you but not having u.
that is the fact I am talking about. it hurt deep down. if you ever see this, just tell me what am I

to you??? but guess that wont happen. nvm!! i am just thinking to much.

hope that u can be happy, always.

Twilight, New Moon.

2009-11-27T18:15:00.001+08:00

guess wat!!! went to mines, watch 2 movie.

chrismas carol and twilight!!

went there in the afternoon, afraid that the ticket sold out!!
i was totally wrong, went there and we no need to que up!! take our home sweet time, buying ticket, choosing places. happy get to sit the best places!! pity the one that went all the way to mid valley and fully book! hahaha!

Chrismas Carol
how should i put it, kinda boring i guess.
about an old man do not celebrate chrismas, and flash back of how selfish he was.

twilight-new moon
people said, the book is better then the movie. don know which one is true
but certainly, the movie really rock big time.
pity bella when Edward left her, lucky there was still jacob around.

Jacob, good person, a daring one(able to tell his feeling), hot temper and hot body! seriously, i know how he feel when bella choose edward instead of him! haha!!!

all i wanna say is girl: u all should watch it, u all will like it, seeing those handsome faces get u pump up?

boy: watch it, try to imitate Jacob body, u guy will also like the movie.

2012

2009-11-16T21:02:00.001+08:00

just watch 2012, and would like to watch it again,
not because of the price or wat,
there is this guy: protray it self to be a very selfish fellow
which onli wanted to save he himself, and another which wanted to save others,

that movie is so great that teaches us: tresure the one close to you while u still have,
but certainly, wat they have done in side the movie is really good, save life and some action that so thril my spine(hehehe)

but compare to certain some one, by just hearing out their problem and all, does it help?
may be i am just thinking too much!

阿土 songs are great! reflect many of us!!

2009-11-09T23:11:00.001+08:00

你‘爱上谁’？为何，‘差一点’你是我的，对你“死心彻底

应为‘爱你比我重要’，我‘不让你在走’

但是‘他一定很爱你’

all this main point is actually a song tittle by ah tu!
damn nice reflect many of people!

Friend!

2009-11-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

Friend are just unspeakable!
well! as least I have some great friend over the pass few year!
able to help u when u are down, listen to ur complain when u are frustrated, lot more!
luckily, i have friend that are really good, able to do more then what I expected!

YESTERDAY IS HISTORY

TOMORROW IS MYSTERY

TODAY IS A GIFT

BE BLESSED WHILE U STILL HAVE UR FRIEND

SHWO THEM HOW MUCH U CARE ABOUT THEM

MC

2009-10-29T20:17:00.000+08:00

Mc is the job as a host of a function!
Nv thought that i would become one, so it happen so fast that.
I remember it was around, when i just entered the school of UCSI.
Me and my senior were having a student nurses association(SNA) meeting.
Suddenly they call out to my name and be the male mc of that night. I agree, because they sound It so relax! it thought it was cool!
When the date due is coming soon, got to say this, more nervous ever in my entire life! 1st time.
Me and my partner practise alot of time, arrange it quit well!

Finally, it pay off!it is the farewell dinner for the graduating seniors.
It turn into a real life show at the hall at UCSI! with 200+ student attend it
Screw up the starting(because i was so nervous that i forget what to say during that night)
But still, it pass swiftly with few problem.

overall: my 1st time, ended pretty good!
look up at my facebook for the picture: just login and search for edwin choo, click the picture and look in the farewell dinner 09

FISH!!

2009-10-25T13:47:00.000+08:00

It happen that my cousin brought over a fishing land some where at semenyir!! they have been raring tilapia, and other.

before the previous owner put lot of different kind of fish into the pond!

Yesterday, they wanted to harvest tilapia fish!

SO HAPPEN they caught up this two huge fish

so big! it must be chop with the hammer!

there are other fish also! but this two really suprised me! And i dind't know untill today that my dad know the way to cut and clean the fish!! haha!

what wrong man???

2009-10-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

After this exam, thought i would be relax but not. instead of relax i get upset worrying so many stuff but don know what is it. Kepp thinking what is it and still don know.

haiz, when outing with friend, scare that i will say wrong stuff. yum cha with friend, some topic can't even follow joining them and talk. listen to music, all song does not suit the situation. wanna .watch movie but don know which one to watch. seeing a friend, goes speechless, even play basketball, lazy defense.

what the hell is going on, 1st time in my life i feel hopeless, no way to go, doesn't have a target to reach. everything start falling apart. suck man!! really suck!

what did i do when i am away!!

2009-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

Nothing much recently, just passes my exam week stressfully. next, clinical posting(cant wait)

First of all, it was my first time doing a blood donation, haiz, my blood type B. Anyway, the blood

that come out of my body is actually warm, this prove that i am not a cold blooded person!!!

this 3 boy taking same course with me!

Secondly, they have this clincal practise exam, they called it oshe, got very nervous and screw up some procedure, but still can make it. We are compulsory to wear the uniform(let the picture do the talking.

imagine i wear this uniform around my college, i heard people asking among them self(does ucsi give culinary course) they nv think of nursing also!! hahaha!!!

LASTLY, me year end term, finally in a blink of eye!! IT IS OVER!!, but next, have to do clinical posting(which we have to work in hospital) looking forward to it!! SEE YOU GUYS AROUND!!

OK!

2009-09-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

After all those post! still can't forget it. anyway!!

exam and other practical exam all coming soon. guess wat!! School of Nursing is organizing a pink october in ucsi! every student of school of nursing compulsory to take part in this event!
basically, it is to remind us about awareness of breast cancer!

haiz! exam coming up, and yet we are doing all this! haha!! ono ways to forget about the feeling in me!! Fuyoh! so Emotional oh me!!

WTH MAN!!!

2009-09-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

WTH, every time i look at her photo, the feeling in undescribable(i guess there is no such word),

she was so pretty and yet i am like this.

it is like no man can ever get her.

this sucks man!!!

As i wrote on my facebook!

2009-09-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

can some one tell another person who they have a crush on by not making any move?

haiz! Really useless me, she has the looks, the way, the mature way that i like in a girl. it was like perfect in a girl to me.few month ago, what happen was which i assumed she has the interest in hang out with me but it seem like that time i was working. Have to cancel all out going stuff. I was happy that moment. Another month passes, when i quit my job, she has already start her college and it seems that she is very buzy person(you know la student)

The worst came to worst is that. ( when people keep texting you, you know that something might happen there, some connection going on, either hate it or love it) when i was messaging her, suddenly recieved a message from her stated that she has a boy friend since last week (to late and i miss the chance to have a wonderfull girl friend) and stuff like that (she must have hated me texting her).

I was about to create a bank account and i recieved it. My heart goes' shit, shit , shit' can't this of anything. when changing my pin number. my mind go blank. actually took 5 minute to think a password(the guy that teach me was impatient, i have to hurry). my heart go so down, even while playing baskteball, i would shut my self up. can't sleep but eventually slept.

this few month was actually thinking about her (one night actually dream of her as my wife), the problem i seldom blog is because, i don't know whether to blog this or just save it to myself. now i have blog it. the problem is should I forget about her or just keep on be an admired to her. haiz!!

sorry to my friend! i not trying to brag about this! just trying a good way to let it out! hope you guy or girl would understand!

just some update!!!

2009-09-05T14:54:00.001+08:00

check out other picture at ming yang and lee shen facebook!!! they got everything!! and lai wah of couse!!

Camera!!

2009-08-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

I got this antique camera from my aunt while she wanted to

sold his house to do clean up at melaka! she gave all her vcd, decorative item. suddenly out of no where! I took out her small beg! wanted to have a look! then i saw this

it weight about 2 kg!

it got high flash light like a flash bom!

it has a size of your head!

lastly:it is not for sale!

So Happening!

2009-08-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday!! after my class!!! i watch movie(GI Joe) with my friend! damn nice!

have a hair cut! and finally, recieved a sms state that the coach wanna belanja makan!

i went of couse!! from 8.30 eat untill 11. suddenly all of them wanna watch movie!

i join in!! guess wat! reach mid valley at 11.30! watch GI Joe again!!

that movie rock man!!! it is a must watch film!!!!

this was what happen this few week!

2009-08-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

So basically!! everyone is buzy with their own college! own life! we still meet up! but not like high school(everyday) it is also good that every one choose their path! Even when we got back together! more topic to talk? rite?

this is the fish at my aquarium! it has been reduced! due to the cleanliness of the water!!

this is a good memory and experiece! got 3rd! guess wat! i get to play at MABA(where all national player played and do their training there) during the final match!!! hahaha!

this is the end! for now!! see ya guys!!

just some update!!!

2009-08-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

nv thought one day i was able to do this!!!

well! few month passes!!! ok! this happen infront of my house! let the picture do the talking!

THANKS!!!!!

2009-07-30T10:29:00.000+08:00

THANKS TO ALL MY LOVELY FRIEND AND FAMILY!!!

SERIOUSLY!! THANK FOR THE LOVELY MESSAGE AND ALL!!

APPRECIATE IT FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!

Small gathering!!

2009-07-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

this morning! lucky today my class has been postpone!! so i am free the whole day!!!

Well!! it has been plane through the whole week!! every one text each other phone!

"saturday morning wa sek kai" ok!!! i will make it short!!!

this morning! suprisingly! eric fetch me!! wow!!(he can drive in a very safe way leh(20km/h)so fast)

then this morning! saw kok how, kang wei, wai yew(fat liao leh), liang wei, smoke,park leng, ji mao, eric, so many more.

well! some of them long time nv play ball! today some cant even dribble!! hahaha!!

they have really change!! into good way i guess! more mature!! hahaha!!!

Good to have you guy man!!

basketball again!

2009-07-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

hahaha! feeling lazy to post anyway!

last night was the best night! our basketbal team!(yoke num)

fought our eternal enemy 'the one'

well! before yesterday! i had a dream that i was loosing and all!

but, when the match start! i only think of scoring and do least mistake! guess what!

1st quarter= sapu man! we were leading 17 point(30 something or 10 something)

2nd quarter= sapu of couse! we were leading by half! 48over 22

3rd quarter=76 over 30 something

4th qurter= 80 something or 50!(everyone gets tired) that why!!!

it is just a general knowledge that in OUG! yoke num beat this team called(the one) remember it!!

R.A.N.D.O.M

2009-07-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

walao! regret that i nv take bio!

now have to study 3 time harder to remember the body and those that u guy have it to learn before!

haha! siez ah!!!

study nursing!

2009-07-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

walao!! today is my 1st day going ucsi! orientation day!

i reach there with the shower of blessing(rainning). haiz! all wet!

and soon i took the file(that is diploma in nursing) and sit in my place. and wait for all kind of talks!

i soon get to know that i am the only male nurse in that course. haha! suprisingly! ucsi have lots of pretty girl(i mean the senior la)! hahaha! have to work hard! see you guy!

shoe!

2009-06-18T13:21:00.000+08:00

Guess wat! brought a new shoe! nv thought it was well known among other people! i mean the shoe!

it a kevin durant! black and white edition which is quite new among now! haha! it provide full grip while we need to stop and run again!

why la.......

2009-06-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

Deng lo! the more the days passes! the more lonely i feel!

every one start their own path with college with friend!

having a fun time every day! spending time together with friend!

playing sport together! haiz, it feels so left out! anyway!

1 more month and that it! start our own path! haha!

cut hair!

2009-05-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

After keeping my hair for half a year!

ok lo! today! went to the saloon 'the snip'!

once in a while, cut in a expensive saloon quite worth it!

i sat down! they wash my hair la, give a massage la! ok!

the professional stylist ask~ leng chai, wanna cut untill how ah~ i say~ chin chai la~

then she cut untill so damn short! u all see sure laugh!

cannot feng my hair liao! haha!!

wat la!

2009-05-18T12:53:00.001+08:00

my supervisor let me off on monday(that mean today).

no one to hang out with! so damn boring leh!

everyone start their schooling! college and all!

haiz...........(haha)

DAMN TIRED LO!!!

2009-04-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

the more i work the more i feel like wanna stop!! so tired that i almost pengsan!!!!seriously!!

14-april, tuesday!!! i enter my shift at 12 pm, ok then i start working hard!! and i realize i am

the only boy among 7 staff, so boy have to do the boy's job,(haha that is wat i think) supervisor

tell me to go up store(that store located at the other end of midvalley,it is at the 3rd floor of mid

valley and located behind the food court there), tell me take stock since i so free, anything la! i

walk up pushing a trolley! inside that store fill with carten of shoe! i have to slowly carry the

carten out alone, then find the correct art number which given by the supervisor to take down

the stock!10 carten have to be push down from the store, pushing the trolley was'nt a matter!

but as soon i reach my shop which located at the other end of midvalley 1st floor. my supervisor

give another 30 type of art number. so i have to carry the stock down alone and have to repeat

another 3 time time. each time i enter the upper store i have to carry few carten out from the

store and slowly push till my shop there!! work like hell! show u all the picture next time!

alltogether push the rolley 4 round! the biggest problem is my pay is still the same, thinking of

quitting it! but carrying stuff can help keeping fit while working!! haha!! sorry ah! grammar error alot!

license!

2009-04-07T14:31:00.000+08:00

walao!! taking P LICENSE is so easy! yesterday went to hulu langat! some place in cheras! haha!

guess wat i wake up so early5.30 in the morning! because that uncle live near my house so he has

to fetch me 1st! haiz! reach there test out 1 last time for the car! and straight to exam! uphill! i

spent one minute to finish it! bring my car to parking there and let him sigh my pare and another 1

minute gone! 3 point turn another 1 minute gone! alltogether spent 5 minute finish the couse

after i have waited so long for it!

on road!!! worse still! the whole afternoon was sunny hot! when it come to my turn!!! idiot

weather heavy rain!!! lucky there was no problem while i drive! try to slow down as much as

possible down hill! i free the gear and let it run wild! and it still go up to sixty! haiz!!! end of the

pass my car license! and today, pass my bike license too!! haha!!

relationship!

2009-04-02T09:59:00.000+08:00

too late i am to confess or wat! why!(because not sure weather she has feeling toward me or wat!) that it! feel down the whole day! most probably and may be whole week! haiz.......................

working at KLCC!

2009-03-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

wow! that is a fair which just over today! i have been selected to work as their staff! hahaha! quite

fun! people there are so friendly! hahaha! the payment is rm15 per hour! fuyoh! where can u get

such a deal! bu wat to do! it is british council! hahaha! i took their pen available for 1 year supply

which i kept in a bag! hahaha! but eating budget very high lo! 6.90 curry mee and no stuff price!

hahaha! klcc ma!

Get use to it!

2009-03-24T22:46:00.001+08:00

haha!! now even if i work full day! it is not a proplem anymore!

be4! i work full!10 morning to 10 night!! that night while taking ktm!! i even can sleep while standing! damn tired!!!

KTM suck la!!

2009-03-20T22:23:00.001+08:00

aiyo! hopeless la KTM!!! compare to the rail way of ktm and lrt! ktm is much easier! shit la!!!

i work at mid valley!! so every morning have to sit ktm to reach mid valley! there is no bus other

ktm! so! this few day! i work morning shift! when the time strike 6! it is my off time! i rush to the

ktm! OMG! the whole train station is pack of people! how am i going to even line up!! shit la!! have

the second train! which arrive every 30 minute!! why! so damn late leh!!

could! could ktm be like lrt that fast! hahaha!

last year!

2009-03-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

well!! last year was the best year ever!

friend are great!

Won the hari sukan!

get second in basketball tournament!

whole basektball team wakil zon bangsar!

won the bola baling antara zon!

get to train with the army boy( which they are also not so tough)

enter the bola baling state team!

won the cross country!

every thing! just every thing was so fine!

hope that tomorrow will that great too!

wish every student last year form 5 de good luck! haha!(epecially the basketball team, pangkor group, and other) haha! good luck!

BOSS

2009-02-24T11:14:00.000+08:00

well! now currently work at eserli! my supervisor take leave for few day!! not seeing her this week! so my boss wife(si tau poh) take over her job. haiz!! well last night wat happen was!

we(kok how, hom lam,me) start talking about kid and school! the more we talk the more SHE talk! other promoter was like! 1st time she(si tau poh) talk so damn much! and start taking out her handphone showing how pretty her 5 year old girl! all those stuff la! WOW!show finish liao! then start talking how good the daughter is, how much her daughter improve in english ah, how great and all those stuff lah! haiz!!! wow can talk till A to Z non stop!

this is wat i think!
guy! remember when u get wife! tell her don talk so much about ur family even though it is great! to other people!(i mean show off)
girl! next time get married! get kid! don be like her pls!!!!not to say showing off! but there is a point to stop!

try to be in my shoe and surely u can understand!! hahaha! don take it seriously! pls!!!

Basketball

2009-02-20T16:26:00.000+08:00

early morning 7am start waiting for kok how at the second door of the school! haiz! as alway kl people come late half and hour.

  me, eric, kok how, then went to wa sek kai! some where at oug! start playing baksteball with kang wei and liang wei! ok! not boring! fun! untill 10.30! me and kok how are still exhausted from last night traning at yoke num! we went to mamak ajimah! when we paid! that idoit fellow drop 10cent in the curry!(boss told eric: u punya 10 cent dalam curry, sendiri ambil la) fuyoh! eric beh song adi! haiz! in the afternoon! went to school for the selection of school basketball team! so! 12.00 we went in and our hair was gold in colour! we sat at the canteen! when school over!  well! pretty girl become more mature! boy grow taller(form 1 boy was extremly short leh) haiz! don know la

    Deng! this year basketball selection has 4 time more people then last year de selection! walaoweh! i got a shock! lucky few friend was there to witness and help up in the selection! thank to kok how, smoke, kang wei, ah fai, liang wei. Some good player were notice!

   lucky!! this year basketball team are still strong!!! don know wat will happen in next year! will saujana team ever be fear by other school team!!!

working!

2009-02-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

woah! firstly i thought workin is great. but the longer u work. damn siez de lo!!! nv thought that even work in a girl's shoe shop would be this tiring! that eserli shop really can sell leh! alway girl would buy shoe for no reason! most of the customer shoes are still alright. but! they spent 2++ to buy new shoe! haiz! then we as a promoter have to take for them at such a risky high place! nvm! as long as the comission enter my bank! thta alright with that!

One of the best chinese new year!!

2009-02-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

neighbour"s no matter where!

how the hell they end up like that!!!

the hair done by my bro

my mother's brother

sitawan!

that day before cny! early morning start travelling back to sitiawan(where my home town is) once reach there was already noon! i unpack the stuff! start playing basketball opposite my grandma house there! saw our neighbour sibling!

About 2.30! stop playing and watch movie at home untill evening 5. at night dinner start at 6.30! because that house only have 1 toilet! so everyone start bathing at 5pm. just the right timing. we took of before 6.30 and reach there before the dinner start! the dinner end at 8. went home change to basketball attire and start playing again! guess wat! that basketball court there is like all people around malaysia gather to play together! some friend from kepong, johor, sabah, and more! they are strong but not vvveeeerrrry strong!

at 11.55. everyone went home to enjoy fire craker. I went home and play as much as i could! because there were plenty! as far as i know the firecraker sound only end at 1!

second day!! at 10. all of us went to church!! it is like a tradisional to us sitiawan! every one wear their best and walk in the church like a model!!! haiz!! evening my bro join the church telematch! the picture is above!at night went to cc! from 8 untill 1.30. hahaha!(try the game "spore", it is fun)

3rd day is the 2nd day of chinese new year!!! which is the day i returm home from my hometown(sitiawan) haiz! feel sad to go home!

kl!!!
4th day the 3rd day of cny!! my house held a family gathering for the choo's side.( my dad side la)

start preparing at morning 8am i wake up swipe the floor, mop the floor(as alway) , peel petai, peel prawn skin. stop at 12. wash the floor outside the house! about 2.30. ah boon(my cousin) took me to batu 11 play basketball again!! haha! no people de! evening uncle fui start arriving! sun kit and the sister! hahaha! first time cny! everyone wanted to bet! there was the fun part! starting 1st hour won about 19dollar! finally in the end, only win 5 dollar!! haha! there goes everyone went home! even though the ang pow money had decrese but the enjoy more fun part!!

they are drinking!

woah! cousin!!

sarawak!!

2009-02-08T14:47:00.000+08:00

wrap it like that and it really taste good!

this is the food i am talking about!

two is enough! i personally don like the taste!

massage leh!

guess wat plant is this!

so far down!

houses there in sarawak culture villge!

the scenery there!(not bad)

damn yeng!

sarawak culture village

nv thought that sarawak have such a nice gym!

Sorry for the delay! buzy!

anyway! FINALLY! went to sawarak!

this event happen before the chinese new year week!

1st day! the plane arrive at night! kutching was the place!it was alrealy night so not much we can do! Guess wat! my sis, her house near the airport! 5 minute drive! but the weather there suck! rain rain rain! every day not a sight of the sun! that night was luckyly no rain! my bro and sis bring me to the best hawker centre to had dinner and supper! eat while i still can eat! so wat they order was fantastic! 2 square normal table fill with all kind of food! in the end because of the plane sick! i eat those that are nice! hahaha!!

2nd day and 3rd day! went to shopping mall!
Well!basically! cannot expect time square or mid valley at kutching! but the shopping mall there almost half of the size of mid valley! only two big mall is located there! THE SPRING and BULLOWED(I THINK IS THIS NAME) only two mall! haha! i has been waiting chance to play basketball there! but! the weather there always rain! So! every evening have to stay at home watch tv! haiz!! went to yoga class!(wei! all of u should try it. tougher then i thought) went to gym!

friday!(i think)
went to sarawak culture vilage! which we saw some tradisional dance before we went visit the people there! wow! there was this place! where u pay 1 dollar to shoot three dart through your mouth with a wood! i pay 3 dollar and only kena the board 2time! that hunter told me( kalau awak masuk hutan awak tak boleh hidup oh) i laugh and hurry went other place!

during saturday! went to church at night! totally diferent from my church! anyway!! ! next day sunday! woah!!! meet few koreans because going to hiking! due to the thundestorm before we reach there! some big trees block the road! and we have to go such big round to reach the distance! reach the water fall! before that lucky my blood is clean because no leech on my leg! finally get to eat turtle egg!

19th, 20th january i stay at home most of the time! big bro and sis all working! at night! the last night! they cook something which is very good! i nv taste before! but that food i think most chinese will love it!!!

Nv been to sarawak!

2009-01-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

haha!! later, i will be sitting on a actual plane. with beg and all leaving east malaysia and arrive at west malaysia. Seriously, alway heard rumour about sarawak. now finally i will be going ther and witness my self! hope it is a nice place! show u guy the picture when i get back!

1st day of school!!!!

2009-01-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

1st time in my life i miss the day of schooling at the start of the year!!
morning, eric and their gang plan to play basketball at wa sek kai!!! i join them!!!
i wake up 6 in the morning bath and not wearing uniform(1st time leh) eric came to my house.
they plan to gather at the second gate of the school which all student will enter the school by it!!
in the mean time me, eric, zheng hong arrive 1st! 3 of our hair is gold in colour.(people eye start staring)

it is alright, suddenly kok how come(another gold hair people) we walk to wa sek kai(laing wei was late). the 4 of us. when we walk together at the road side, driver will give us the looks(because 4 of our hair is gold in colour) quite funny.but it is fun!!!

untill every one arrive we start our match and all!! haiz!!(kang wei twisted his ankle and have to start work later) lucky it is not very serious!!

i hurry went home at 11.30 reach home at 12 something. because going mid valley in the afternoon. zhing zhing birthday!! watch movie(1st time people go study and we go watch movie) and walk around. time flies, suddenly 6 something liao. joe and the other had dinner at kim gary. i drink something and it is already 7. walk around till 8 and sit ktm back home(1st time sit ktm so late)

that is it the 1st day of schooling and not going to school!!

New Year eve!!!

2009-01-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

Afternoon went to midvalley to meet up some friend for the new year eve plan! every one plan to go station 1! too bad i promise my mom to attend my own home party!(which is also quite fun)

BUT!! night time, friend start calling to go sungai wang or station 1. Me myself wanted to go so badly, so i ask my brother, parent to fetch. they were all so buzy and and scare to drive because that night every where will be jam!!! so have to turn down their plan and enjoy my own!

So the night passes by having bbq dinner with friend around the nighbourhood area. chicken, fish, everythinh were there. at 111.55pm. every expected "the mines" to shoot up some fire work or something. by the time 12.05. there was still no sign of fire work. imagine last time "the 1st day of chinese new year till 15th. everynight "the mines" will fire up some. But the only 1 new year eve day! they did'nt even let got abit of it! very upset!!!went in the house play heart attack! hahaha!

wich u all


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pangkor!!!

2008-12-28T12:14:00.000+08:00

while snokeling

me and kye ern

kok how

how i hope this day won't come

when did that hand appear?

hahaha! have to eat most of the food
if not there will be lot of left over

3rd day
check out at 9.00. but every one wake up at 8.30(they were planning to wake up at 6.30morning)
we have breakfast at the same place and have to carry our bag to the nearest (ferry station)
their picture were taken above, look more on their eye, all swollen! include me. lunch time we have it at tapah. the foothill to cameron highland! food there taste great(because we were hugry every thing taste better)

2nd day
I had to wake at 7.30. it will be a tiring day because we were visiting location to location. the best part was snokeling(iguess this is the spelling for it). anyway, it was hard to see the fish while the water at pangkor was dirty. we boy wear their provided attire and went in the sea. the gogle i use was non water proof. it was lose at the right eye. salt water keep entering my eye. have to get up from the water and adjust again. so! i change with my friend which he has give up snokeling with no fish he has seen. the faci gace me a piece of bread. i alone went near the big rock and hold the bread in a eye range of mine. big fish start eating up the bread and bite my finger! fun yet scary!!! after lunch we start playing in the beach at pool and back to the beach! alomost all of us get sun burnt! fun!!!!! night time we hang out at the beach! some were drinking bear but nv get drunk! meet new friend! they were from ipoh! at night i went to fei sin room which they had a dvd player there. they play card, ramee, watch ghost movie. we stay up untill 5.30a.m i was thinking of not sleeping and at last i slept!!!!!

1st day
We wait for bus at school in the morning about 5.30am. lucky, some friend was there already. I join them, we went up the bus and start the journey to gua temurung. Wow, the beast was when we were in the cave where the water flow and we have soack our self in the water. we play water in the dark and there was no parent there to stop us, that was the best.
after came out from the cave was about 1 somthing (i think). we boy take a bath which we are still dirty. we plan to get to pankor only take a clean bath. but the girl took about half and hour to bath. haiz......... went up to bus. another 1 hour drive we take our lunch at 3. went to lumut for the ferry. WOW!!! at 7pm we reaches the resort which is called (coral bay). hurry take a bath and take our dinner hahaha!! went to beach at night( i realize that 1 year i have nv walk on sandy beach) went back home sleep quite early because tomrrow will be an tiring for me.(which i lose my voice the second day)